25 September 2013
Hey boy hey ~ LOL so I noticed my last journal was about my little car accident. Shame. I don’t want to be remembered as someone like that so here I am writing :D but as if I’ve been doing any better. But, yes. I’ve been better since then. Not in the driving department, really, but just emotionally and mentally I guess.
So all this time, there’s been school. Summer and I took first sem, yay ! Isn’t that exciting? Well, it’s almost the end of the first semester, our finals is on the 1st week of October (or is it the second? but I’m sure it’s during the 1st Monday of next month) and wow, how time flies. I’m excited for Halloween though, it’s one of my favorite day, next to my birthday :D And can you believe it’s less than a hundred days ‘til Christmas!? But enough about that, I wanted to talk about my wonderful experiences or encounters with my ultimate hobby which is reading BL.
I read more and more BL each week and I can’t help but notice how I get to read stuffs that I can totally relate to (but it’s just recently that I’ve been reading BL that has part of my life in them) like lines from Homerun Ken’s I Want to Become Your Bird (this and this), Lee Young Hee’s The Summit and especially this one from Natsume Isaku’s House Backer. Like for reals, it’s like someone has been spying on me and is writing about my life and my shortcomings. Yes, particularly my shortcomings. How I am such a miserable pile of shit and all I do is laze around being useless, you know what I’m saying? It’s a sad life, but I don’t know how else to live. But hey, I’ve been trying to be a better person. Believe me. It’s a struggle. But you know, when I read lines that perfectly describes me, I can’t help but feel down and happy at the same time. I’m happy because I see that I’m not the only one, and especially because I share the same predicament with a character in the BL that I’m reading, makes me think that God made BL for me :D and me and BL, it’s meant to be! haha
It amuses me that I can relate to the characters I read about, actually relating to them makes me like them more, and me liking a character makes me happy because I can be affectionate towards someone (or something) and this proves my humanness (coz boy I’ve been trying to be normal, or does this make me abnormal for being so, nao I’m confused). Butt fuq it if I’m normal or otherwise coz right nao I’m happy （=´∇｀=）